BLESSED

It is Christmas Eve, and I am so excited to share tomorrow morning with my beautiful baby girl. Even though she could care less about presents or toys, she is my Angel, and I am so happy she is here with me on this Christmas. If there is one constant theme this year it has been to simplify, and remember what Christmas is really about. I have NEVER not gotten everyone I know and love a gift. This year that was impossible for me, and I honestly feel okay about it. My heart is in such a different place right now, and I am so greatful that I can be reminded of the things that really make me smile, and happy. SIMPLE things. Morning, I love the morning, when Makayla wakes up, and I can hear her playing in her crib. Giving her the morning baba with Good Morning America, and the dogs still curled up in my bed. Getting going for the day, and planning what a great day it will be, no matter what. Work. My work is my pride and joy, I love what I do, and have been lucky enough to be reminded of that this last week, as I helped a stroke patient climb a stair for the first time, and he looked into his wifes' eyes, and cried and cried. And I cried with them. I love that I am that lucky person who feels so strongly the spirit of God as people triumph these types of things. Neighbors. Oh you sweet people you!! I can't tell you enough how greatful I am to live here. My loving neighbors, visiting teachers, Bishop, friends...I truly LOVE all of you, and thank you for the support. I feel your love, and your spirits, and even though I have been a recluse, please know I feel it, and appreciate it, and will be coming out soon to see all of you wonderful people. I am ready. Counseling. MAGIC. True magic. Thankyou to my beautiful counselor, who IS my positive male role model. He has reminded me who I truly am on the inside, and how to love myself again. That is a miracle. Family. Need I really say more? What would I do without my beautiful family? No way could I have gotten through this trial without you guys! You are my soul, and I am so greatful for you all so close and willing at any moment to help me. I love my foundation, my family. Self revealation is a beautiful thing, and when you realize you are stronger than you thought you were, and you CAN do the impossible, peace becomes second nature, and I can't explain how much I have needed peace, so Thankyou, Heavenly Father, for never leaving my side. Thankyou for placing certain people at certain times in my life, the new ones too. I have never felt so strongly about the power of spirituality. A.MA.ZING. As you can all tell I am feeling much better these days. I feel sure of myself, my decisions, and my future. I am no longer terrified, and am so aware of the wonderful things I will be able to accomplish in my life. Although it will be hard at times, I hope I never forget to always simplify. So to all of you wonderful friends, thankyou so much for your prayers, and love. I'm gonna make it!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!